so this is the beginning. i have been trying to find the motivation to workout and change my body the way that i wish to for years. i have also been binding for about 5 years and i have always had the thoughts of top surgery floating in my mind. i finally ordered some herbal/natural estrogen blockers to one, help with muscle gain and two, to help find the motivation to do what i have always wanted to do with my body without anyone judging me. i have thought throughout the years that i would lose people by doing this. i just keep thinking about others feelings instead of just simply doing it for me. so whether i actually get the top surgery or not i am writing these blogs to show myself my growth and to find the motivation to keep my body in shape. so these are pictures from my start:
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